bekaa_lynn

Update

2006-01-24T02:24:37Z

Mk so um...last tuesday I got hit in the head with a shot put. Ive been out of school and today was my first day back. My head hurts, I'm somewhat cranky, and i don't remember some things. However my friends are awesome maid my day that much better. Tomorrow I have a doctors appointment, and day one of the English regents. Wow things are crazy.

Beka

P.S. I love Amanda Donovan more than anyone else in the whole world!!

Wow

2005-11-10T16:07:19Z

I havent used this in forever but Im going to start again.

bekaa_lynn @ 2005-06-05T21:14:00

2005-06-06T01:19:12Z

I love how I can never do anything right. I invited to friends to go to the movies with me and one complains that night that the other is being queer and today the other asked me why I invited my other friend. I'm wicked glad Drama runs and ruins a teenagers life. I'm sick of it.

It's been a long weekend...

Friday- went to the movies, went to the 3.5 hour band concert

Saturday- went to Olive Garden, over to Kristins with Kiran and Maggie (I met this little girly, her hair was kinda curly, I went do to the country jain to visit my mother , brotha, and my sista and then I left... LOL... great times girls <3)

Sunday- Church then back to Kristins to swim then to Kiran's Party...

I'm wicked tired...

Beka

P.S. Drama needs to die

Randomness

2005-05-25T23:54:12Z

You left me cold, an empty shell

With my heart you fled

Silently, I sat in silence

Remembering the words you said

Lose your number, forget your face

Move on, forget about you.

The love I gave was all in vain

I must find somebody knew.

The pain you caused, it cut me deep.

Deeper than the sharpest knife.

But as time goes on the wounds heal

It's time to move on with my life.

I've been hurt for way too long

I deserve some of life's joy.

Somebody who loves me true

and will realize I am no toy.

So if in time, you start regretting

The road on which you've gone

Don't cry to me, I'll only laugh.

You see... I'm moving on.

Long Day

2005-05-24T22:09:08Z

Today has been a long, long day. In study hall I did my homework that I didnt do at home. In math we went over a regents. In English I read on the floor with Danielle and Christine cause I love them. In study hall Kristin and I bet Amanda Brownelle some stuff and I had a serious dicussion with Nick Cummins and Scott! French was a blur and Global was stupid. I got in trouble in orchestra which was wicked funny. Chemistry was awesome... not. My mom didnt get me until 3 from school. Oh yeah and I saw this awesome picture of me at Prom. Man I just loved everything about it... NOT! Oh yeah and in to pictures I have, Amanda and Michelle look so much alike it scared me . Yeah that been my day so far.

New Slogan: Moving forward and never looking back!

Beka Lynn

P.S. I enjoyed Prom because I got to dance with "my date" according to Scott is Amanda!!

bekaa_lynn @ 2005-05-23T19:34:00

2005-05-23T23:42:04Z

I haven't updated this in a while.

Friday Night:

Went to the cove and hung out with awesome people. I'm getting better at POOL!

Saturday:

Prom.... lets not go there...

After Prom... awesome time with the SADD Girls... let not talk about that either...

Kristin came over at 5 AM and we hung out and watch National treasure... well kinda...

Monday:

NHS picnic which was awesome...

I got to drive...

Yeah its been a crazzy week... but I'm moving on and not looking back!

Beka Lynn

bekaa_lynn @ 2005-05-18T15:53:00

2005-05-18T19:57:26Z

02248:HAPPY 16th BIRTHDAY BEKA :-):-)
TioN: Happy birthday!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Fy9:HAPPY BIRTHDAY BEKA LYNN... I lover you Ister!
707: HAPPY BIRTHDAY BEKA!!!
101: Happy Birthday

What can i say... I'm loved

bekaa_lynn @ 2005-05-08T19:43:00

2005-05-08T23:44:23Z

It's Mothers Day incase you forgot...

Anyways...

Today I talked to my sister online and it was awesome... She called me gay :-P (she found out my secret)..., Kristin and I tought childrens church... that was funn... Oh yeah and my mommma and I went to PJ's for Ice Cream... it was yummy...

Beka

bekaa_lynn @ 2005-05-07T19:52:00

2005-05-07T23:52:31Z

Well this wasnt working for a while, but Jenn fixed it for me. That makes me happy so I will be using it again.

Beka

Jennifer= loverrr :-p

ipod!!!

2005-03-17T02:28:27Z

MY DADDY BOUGHT ME AN ISHUFFLE AND IM SO EXCITED. I JUST WANTED TO LET YOU ALL KNOW THAT. Oh yeah and that Ashley Marie is my new best friend and i love her <33333 Beka Lynn

NEW COMPUTER

2005-03-11T21:14:39Z

I finally got my new computer and it is amazing. I have an ICam, Ipod, Ichat, and everything else. Yeah its an Apple and i love it so much. Yeah thats about all oh yeah and Kristin and I had the greatest time last night and everytone should look at the pictures. Their at www.webshots.com/users/dancer02248. They are awesome and tell how much fun we had. I LOVE KRISTIN RINOLDO SO MUCH. Beka Lynn P.S. anyone want to do anything this weekend let me know. My life is boring and I need to have so friends and get alife so let me know.

1st post in a while

2005-03-06T22:31:54Z

Now that I'm allowed on the computer again I will try to update this more...

Beka Lynn

It's gonna burn for me to say this
But it's comin from my heart
It's been a long time coming
But we done been fell apart
Really wanna work this out
But I don't think ya gonna change ya
I do but you don't
Think it's best we go our separate ways
Tell me why I should stay in this relationship
When I'm hurting baby, I ain't happy baby
Plus theres so many other things I gotta deal with
I think that you should let it burn

When your feeling ain't the same and your body don't want to
But you know gotta let it go cuz the party ain't jumpin' like it used to
Even though this might bruise you
Let it burn
Let it burn
Gotta let it burn

Deep down you know it's best for you except but you
Hate the thought of her being with someone else
But you know that it's over
You know that it was through
Let it burn
Let it burn
Gotta let it burn

Sendin' pages I ain't supposed to
Got somebody here but I want you
Cause the feelin ain't the same find myself
Callin' her your name
Ladies tell me do you understand?
Now all my fellas do you feel my pain?
It's the way I feel
I know I made a mistake
Now it's too late
I know she ain't comin back
What I gotta do now
To get my shorty back
Ooo ooo ooo ooooh
Man I don't know what I'm gonna do
Without my booo
You've been gone for too long
It's been fifty-eleven days, um-teen hours
Imma be burnin' till you return (let it burn)

When your feeling ain't the same and your body don't want to
But you know gotta let it go cuz the party ain't jumpin' like it used to
Even though this might bruise you
Let it burn (let it burn, let it burn, you gon'learn)
Let it burn (gotta let it burn)
Gotta let it burn

Deep down you know it's best for yourself but you
Hate the thought of her being with someone else
But you know that it's over
you know that it was through
Let it burn
Let it burn
Gotta let it burn

I'm twisted cuz one side of me is tellin' me that I need to move on
On the other side I wanna break down and cry (ooooh)
I'm twisted cuz one side of me is tellin' me that I need to move on
On the other side I wanna break down and cry (yeah)

Ooh ooh ooh ooh ooh oooh
Ooh ooh oooh (can ya feel me burnin'?)
Ooh ooh ooh oooh ooh oooh

So many days, so many hours
I'm still burnin' till you return

When your feeling ain't the same and your body don't want to
But you know gotta let it go cuz the party ain't jumpin' like it used to
Even though this might bruise you
Let it burn
Let it burn
Gotta let it burn

Deep down you know it's best for yourself but you
Hate the thought of her being with someone else
But you know that it's over
You know that it was through
Let it burn
Let it burn
Gotta let it burn

only one

2005-02-20T21:12:20Z

Broken this fragile thing now
And I can't, I can't pick up the pieces
And I've thrown my words all around
But I can't, I can't give you a reason

I feel so broken up (so broken up)
And I give up (I give up)
I just want to tell you so you know

Here I go, scream my lungs out and try to get to you
You are my only one
I let go, there's just no one that gets me like you do
You are my only, my only one

Made my mistakes, let you down
And I can't, I can't hold on for too long
Ran my whole life in the ground
And I can't, I can't get up when you're gone

And something's breaking up (breaking up)
I feel like giving up (like giving up)
I won't walk out until you know

Here I go, scream my lungs out and try to get to you
You are my only one
I let go, there's just no one who gets me like you do
You are my only, my only one

Here I go so dishonestly
Leave a note for you my only one
And I know you can see right through me
So let me go and you will find someone

Here I go, scream my lungs out and try to get to you
You are my only one
I let go, there's just no one, no one like you
You are my only, my only one
My only one
My only one
My only one
You are my only, my only one

_©^©©_©©^©_©

blahh

2005-02-19T00:06:06Z

im sick... its pnemonia in case anyone cares...

Beka

T BABE

2005-02-15T23:06:52Z

This entry is just to tell evryone that i love Talyor Phillips.... T. We deffinatly need to hang out more. Nest Feb. Break... ROAD TRIP... to V.A. Beach with Krissy and Nikki. And HUGH McFlurries...

yeah thats it and...

I LOVE T

Beka

bekaa_lynn @ 2005-02-09T17:27:00

2005-02-09T22:29:41Z

So Monday Kyle Backer and I got into a fight and yesterday his away said he needed to talk to me. Yeah and today it says that he hates it when people start fights with him. To set the record straight, i asked him ONE question and he flipped on me. Gosh I didnt do anything and I think he needs to grow up. I swear men get there period. Honestly do you know one man who once a moth doesnt flip out on you.

On a Happier note, Kristin Rinoldo wrote another poem today and it has been decided that it is the best work she had ever done. She is amazing and i love her deeepllyy. Today is a great day because its Wensday and that means I get to see Nate and church and all. So seeing as how it is Wensday i thought that Kristins peom would go perfect in the bottom.

Beka Lynn

Roses are Red

Violets are Blue

Beka is SWEET

And she loves you!

She thinks you are sexy,

She knows that you’re hottt,

And she wants to go out,

With you a whole lot!

Your beautiful face,

Your sparkling eyes,

she likes you much more,

Then she likes other guys!

Do you like her or not?

Will you check yes or no?

Mark yes if you like her,

And if not check no!!!

Yes_YY^Y No

by: Kristin Rinoldo

Kristainooo

2005-02-08T23:49:05Z

okay this post is deffinatly just to state that Kristin Marie Rinoldo is the most awesome person in the world and that her poerty is amazingg. She is the most amazing person I have ever met and everyone should want to be like her. I love her so much even though she calls Rob Robert. She is wicked cool and has the best personality and is a all around great person to hang with.

So Krisin if your reading this... I LOVE YOU...

Beka Lynn

roses are red

violets are blue

Nate is wicked hot

and sexy and nice too

by: Krisitn Rinoldo

bekaa_lynn @ 2005-02-04T16:21:00

2005-02-04T21:24:54Z

Hey guys...

Im at Carolyn Austins and I must say that I LOVE CHRISTINE SO MUCH....

Yeah and NAte Eather is deffiniatly wicked hot and i love him and he hates me so yeah... thats good...

post more later...

Beka Lynn

"People say that Love is giving someone the ability to destroy you, but trusting them not to.
If you really love me tell me what I want to hear, but those other words are what I fear.
If you really love me, would you stand by my side?
Would you care for me? Be there for me? Be there when I cry?
Don't tell me you love me when you have someone else on your mind.
Don't tell me you want me when you have someone else by your side.
I really don't wanna hear it, because you'll break my heart.
Don't try to fix what is broken. Don't even start.
If you didn't notice...I'm In love with you."

Christine Naomi Khamis....My love

2005-02-01T20:28:19Z

This post is just to say that I love CHRISTINE NAOMI KHAMIS so frikken much and want everyone to know that. And Carolyn I kinda want the Usher CD that you were going to burn for me. If its a problem I can burn it at my house but dont steal it from Christine cause thats just wrong. Oh yeah and that my computer still isnt fixed so posts will be on random days until it is.

Beka Lynn

<Nate Eather3

bekaa_lynn @ 2005-01-25T15:58:00

2005-01-25T21:14:45Z

so today was my last day of school for this week. I had my math final today. I thought it was easy which means i probabaly failed it cause thats what I do. I think I do good on something and then I fail. Figures I guess.

Okay everyone is asking me who this Nate kid is. No its not Nate Depirro. His name is Nate Eather and he goes to my church. He is my pastors son and he hates me. I haven't talked to him in a wicked long time. Well I've said hi, but not a real conversation. He doesn't have AIM. So why this sudden obsession with Nate. Well I've liked him for a long time and just never told anyone except for Rob Lefevre. So i tell Rob my deep dark secret, and what does he do. He goes and tells Nate. Yeah so now not only are we not talking, he hates me cause I like him. Yeah so snaps to Rob for that one. And incase things weren't bad enought between us, my brother went up to Nate and told him if Nate hurt me, my brother would hurt Nate. Yeah I could kill my brother for that one. Oh yeah and to top it all of, Nates little brother (2 years younger) has the worlds biggest crush on me and he was standing right there when all of this was going on. Sorry if this sounds like I'm complaining, or that i want your pity. I don't I'm just sick of telling the story over and over again to people. So thats why I've been kinda upset lately and thats why I might seem stand-offish to some of my really good friends. Just because I didn't want to tell anyone. Yeah my life sucks. I hope that clears it all up for you.

I love you all

Beka

How does it feel to know you're everything I need,
the b u t t e r f l i e s in my stomach,
they could bring me to my knees.

Long one so buckle up

2005-01-21T19:46:17Z

I have not updated this in a while cause my computer is in the shop and my dad is only letting me on his like for a few minutes each day. Gosh my dad is wicked gay. Anyways im so glad we had a snowday today. My sister called me last night kinda late and when my alarm went off at 5:30 this morning i could tell i had been up a little to late... well ill start from the firt day we went to school this week..... Wensday...

Wensday morning it took me a little longer to get up then normal because of the snowday tuesday. 1st periond was gym and that was fun.. not!!! We're in the weight room and even though its closed we stil had to go in there. My class did a sit in and shortened the period bu like 5 minutes but that was not very much. 2nd period is math with Torok. We are told that sence we only have 4 days left to prepare for our math final that we should spend all the class days doing worksheets. Yeah i finished it and talked to Kristin Rinoldo for like the whole period. 3rd period is English... we have to have our book finished by Monday and i was only on chapter 10!!! English is fun though cause Mary Pisa, Christine Khamis, Danielle Broeker, Ashley Nettles, and Kisha Rodregus??(dont know how to spell her last name) are in it. 4th period is a study hall in the caf. Ashley adn i studied for our global test a little bit. What we went over was on the test thought. 5th period is French and I had to write a composition. i hate those. 6th period global.... my World War 2 test that i thought was kinda hard and that i was going to fail. 7th is orch. Its kinda wierd to go there now seeing as how Kyle is supposidly my friend but never talks to me. Thats okay though cause Michelle Farley and i have fun making fun of David and getting inot trouble. 8th period is lunch....(i only have lunch on the days i have gym if you didnt know that) I sit with Sara Botting and read a book.... not my English book but another one that Mary is letting me borrow. 9th period is Chem. I found out that we have a test on friday and if i dont pass my avaergae will drop and its only an 86. After school activitys are cancelled but carolyn, christine, and i stay after cause we are cool and hang in the tv room. christine and i got into a fuck war and then went to carolyns locker but it was being fucked up and wouldnt open. my mom came to get me and i went home and watch gilmore girls and then did homework and watch the new episode of gilmore girls. Thursday was basically the same exceept i got my ww2 test back and got a 96 and took a global midterm. and didnt have lucnh but made up a gym class so i didnt have a 1st period study hall.

Today...ive been chilling... later im going to the ortho and then to get my computer back then Dessa Carroll is coming over and maybe the movies after i baby-sit at 6:30.... oh yeah and i really like Nate eather but he hates mel and thats a whole notehr entry

yeah my life is awesome and i love all my friends...

Beka Lynn

Here I go .
I weeping at your feet
Yelling to you do down low,
"Do you not know my face?
Baby cant you see I`ve fallen for you?
C a n t y o u s e e I need you?"
Your eyes of hate have broken me slowly
And now I have only grief
Please come back and save me from my misery

bekaa_lynn @ 2005-01-11T20:43:00

2005-01-12T01:37:36Z

Today I stayed home from school again, but I am going back tomorrow. I feel a little better but not that great and am only going back cause I cant miss another day of Global...

to sick to write that much....

I LOVE ASHLEY MARIE NEETLES WITH ALL MY HEART...

*~*Beka Lynn*~*

you are beautiful under this wonderful blue sky
which I'm sure the Lord made just for you
And you are everything that I could ever dream about
And I thank God for another day with you

bekaa_lynn @ 2005-01-11T20:15:00

2005-01-12T01:34:17Z

bekaa_lynn @ 2005-01-10T15:20:00

2005-01-10T20:34:40Z

I'm wicked sick. I missed school today and probably wont be in tomorrow either. I have so much homework. I have a whole Global paper, two nights of math, and I have to read my English book. All I want is to be better right NOW!!!!!

A statue stands in a shaded place,
An angel girl with an upturned face;
Her name is written on a polished rock,
A broken heart that the world forgot.

Through the wind and the rain,
She stands hard as a stone in a
world that she can't rise above;
But her dreams give her wings
and she flies to a place where she's loved.

*~*Beka Lynn*~*

Closing time, open all the doors
And let you out into the world
Closing time, turn all of the lights on
Over every boy and every girl
Closing time, one last call for alcohol
So finish your whiskey or beer
Closing time, you don�t have to go home
But you can�t stay here

I kNow who I want to take me home,
I know who I wAnt to take me home,
I know who I want to Take me home,
Take mE home

Closing time, time for you to go out
To the places you will be from
Closing time, this room won�t be open
Till your brothers or your sisters come
So gather up your jackets, move it to the exits
I hope you have found a friend
Closing time, every new beginning
Comes from some other beginning�s end

I know who I want to take me home,
I know who I want to take me home,
I know who I want to take me home,
Take me home

Closing time, time for you to go out
To the places you will be from

I know who I want to take me home,
I know who I want to take me home,
I know who I want to take me home,
Take me home

Closing time, every new beginning
Comes from some other beginning�s end

bekaa_lynn @ 2005-01-09T13:18:00

2005-01-09T18:20:00Z

Last night Christine spent the night and this morning we went to church and that was wicked fun... Not!! I'm suppost to go to the movies with awesome people at 5:15 but i probably wont cause I have so much english homework. GRRR its gets me so angry.

write more later...

Beka Lynn

everytime i try to talk to you i get touNgue tied
its like everything i say to you comes out wrong
it never comes out right, so i sAy

why dont you and I get together
take on the world, be Together forever
heads we will, tails we'll try again

so i said why dont you and I get togEther
fly to the moon and straight on to heaven
cause without you they're never gonna let me in